The Story of Us #15
It’s been a long time since I’ve written to you, but not since I’ve thought of you.
I’m seeing someone new. It’s the first relationship I’ve had in almost two years. Will I always feel guilty? I hope not. I don’t want to erase you, but I don’t want to feel this way forever.
Our time was fleeting.
It’s almost October again. I expect this time of year to be a struggle for me for the rest of my life.
I miss you, but this new boy makes me happy. We haven’t really talked about you, but I’m sure the conversation will pop up in the next month. Should I act like it’s not a big deal anymore? Like it’s okay? I feel like whenever I talk about what happened anymore people think I’m seeking attention and sympathy. But that’s not how it is. It just gets so frustrating, keeping these feelings bottled up.
I wish you were here. I could really use a nice long conversation with you, even if it was about nothing. I just miss the sound of your voice.
But I’ll have to settle for the memory of your laugh.
Miss you. Love always,
Hey guys! It’s colorado here and back again! I figured I needed to stay away until I was feeling more mentally balanced. and lately I’ve been having more good days than bad so I figured it was a good time.
But, I use my personal blog more often now. So if you would like to follow that, it’s followme-intothesea It’s kinda lame and mostly rep logs and shit, but I’m friendly and love talking to everyone and answering questions.
I don’t even know if I want to continue the story of us. I may change my mind, but for now I’m going to leave it as it is. Sorry to disappoint.
Dear god, I can not be bothered to put forth the effort to tag all of you. Sorry. You know I still love you.
#14 The Story of Us.
Sorry it’s been so long. But I’m doing a bit better. The last month or so has just been a bit rough. ButvI’ve got so many reasons to stay strong Anywhoo~ I’m on mobile so this post will be a bit sucky. But one of my favorite things about Ohio was his writing talent. Whether it was a song for his band or a poem for me. One of my favorites was aboutvour long distance relationship. Here it is. I don’t know if you guys will like it as much as I do, but you should. I’m sure many ldr’s can relate to it. [01/07/2009 10:52 PM] Wish You Were Here The sun breaks the quiet warmth of night As I wake to find myself alone again. In my dreams I am by her loving side, Immersed by her radiance and beauty. But at dawn I find no comfort in her arms, As my lonely bed casts shadows across my heart. Was she a dream conjured up in the still darkness? I turn to the window and gaze wearily out at the unforgiving world. Why should I be fated to care for one so far away? As if perfection itself were thrust upon me, Only for it to be sent plummeting from my sights again To some far off reaches of the globe. Is there point to life without her angelic touch on my skin? What pleasure can I pertain when all I have is words? And then I speak to her. And I know. Pleasure is not all in psychical being. Her presence in spirit and mind is enough to inspire hope, Hope that one day we shall be together at last. The caring manner in which she speaks so softly to me Is all that I need to carry on living in this joyous dream. My world is lifted as she smiles and laughs. To only be by her side would be heaven. But for now this is enough to keep me overcome with emotion. I close my eyes again, and I am with her.
Thank you sweetie. It really does make me feel a little better when people here talk to me.
Honestly, I don’t know how to smile anymore.. And sorry for posting this on public, but I don.2 think I’ll be able to get on for a while.. But i’d like that… I don’t have very many people to talk to anymore..